These are some facts that happened today, so I can analyze them better when I can have time to meditate silly things that are in my mind. It’s in general a message for me as I put myself in masochistic situations at times (It’s not necessarily related to what I would write below).
- He left without saying a goodbye kiss on the cheek. I always do, and he has done it in the past. Said good bye several times. It does not seem that he forgot, it was intentional. Was it because I was still in bed? He was worried about his future plan? or who I am overthinking this in a crazy way.
- I told him that I wanted my place to get cleaned and little bit more organized before bringing his friend over, that his friend could stay and I didn’t mind it. I was supposed to go to work but I didn’t. He didn’t send me message and just came with his friend. If I hadn’t been in my apartment who would just ignored what I told him and keep it secret. I am making a big deal in the part that he lies so often, and upsets me. So i don’t know when to believe certain things that he said.
- He went for lunch with his friend, he probably knew that i would have said that I was busy, but he could have asked what I was going to eat, if i wanted to go with them or I would have bring you something to eat if I were not going to a place later.
- He is acting in an awkward way. I may be in a very bad mood, but I am thinking right now that he is a small parasite…I have tried to make it a symbiosis but it always favors him…
- Now, stopped having this ridiculous thoughts that you may regret very soon, and continue working.
- Just try to relax and try to feel ok.